You are flawed, and everyone is.

You have to let go the idea of perfection. You need to stop comparing your life with someone else. Clear your thoughts and get it together.

Allow yourself to be flawed. No one is perfect, keep that in mind. How much of your confidence have been damaged just because you're seeing someone else is doing better?

You are seeing what you are allowed to, you are not in their shoes so you never knew.

Start to focus on yourself. Recognize your own potential, have faith in your goddamn self. Show the world who you are, not how someone else present you or treat you.

Stop worrying about what others think about you. Stop allowing negativity to surround your soul. Do not let the bad stop you from discovering the good.

You need to look for the light in the dark.

It's never to late to reinvent yourself.

Choose aliveness and live your life on your own terms. All the things you desire are within reach so go after it. Slow down and take it all in.

Trust me you can do it.

Your flaws doesn't define you, it's just a part of you. You are more than that. Find your own wings, your own fire. Radiate, give love to yourself, and to the whole world. Love will come back to you.

credit: matnan

Selepas 6 tahun merana, simpan, pendam sakit sorang sorang, akhirnya lol, jumpa psikiatri :)

Aku buat checkup dekat hospital kajang, sebab kawan ayah tolong dapatkan appointment tu cepat sikit sebab my appointment dekat terengganu lama sangat and im dying already! So, 18 September 2019, aku jumpa doctor.

Macam macam doctor tu tanya dan kena amik darah lagi. wow my nightmare! jarum hahahah.so then, doctor pun bagi aku ubat, sertraline. Amik setiap malam je

Fyi, ubat antidepressant doctor boleh bagi 2 minggu punya makan sahaja haha, so next appointment baru dia bagi ubat. Actually.... aku takut nak makan ubat tu, yelah selama ni telan paracetamol je. 

Now, aku officially berhenti belajar dekat uitm, hujung bulan ni aku pergi sana amik barang bawak balik. Aku terpaksa berhenti sebab dengan keadaan macamni aku tak mampu la, carrymark lagi, assignment, dalam kuliah pun aku tak fokus, otak ni sibuk risau benda lain.

Zaman sekolah tak apa lah, gagal banyak mana pun tak payah fikir pasal repeat paper, repeat sem !! So, aku buat keputasan berhenti je la dulu dan teruskan treatment dengan psychiatrist and psychologist. 

So, I was diagnosed by my doctor. I have anxiety sampai buat aku dapat panic attack. Now aku akan makan ubat je because my anxiety boleh jadi depression.why? Aku sentiasa risau, takut. Bila aku risau and takut, aku akan sedih. Sedih yang melampau boleh jadi depression.

 Anxiety + depression = bad combo ye. 

Terima kasih yang komen baik baik dan doa <3, may Allah bless you okay!