Post lepas, aku dah cerita pasal my first step to seek help! Now, my first appointment dekat klinik psikiatri. Selepas 6 tahun merana, simpan, pendam sakit sorang sorang, akhirnya lol, jumpa psikiatri :) Aku buat checkup dekat hospital kajang, sebab kawan ayah tolong dapatkan appointment tu cepat sikit sebab my appointment dekat terengganu lama sangat and im dying already! So, 18 September 2019,...

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I seek help, finally. After 4-6 years of struggling with it, I took a huge step. Benda yang dah lama aku nak buat tapi belum mampu sebab masih sekolah. Akhirnya, aku pergi klinik untuk mental health checkup. Dalam beberapa bulan ni, aku makin sakit. Selalunya aku boleh handle sakit ni sebab aku kat rumah, ada parents. Tengok dorang pun dah okay. tapi kalini...

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Hai, hello. Tak tahu nak cakap apa, i was dying. My life macam huru hara. Aku baru masuk university and im so dead. It is hard for me sebab i hate socializing. During interim, setiap pagi, aku nangis sebab aku rasa takut, aku gelisah. Aku penat sebenarnya. 3 minggu aku macam tu, bangun 4 pagi menangis, gementar, gelisah, sesak nafas, rasa kena cekik....

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Dah sebulan tak post sebab busy lol. Busy apply macam macam and pergi sana sini untuk survey uni/kolej. Life is hard. Aku tak kerja sebab takde transport, nenek aku pulak overprotective gila. So, masa aku habis search la semua pasal benda untuk sambung belajar. My first choice nak sambung kat Kolej Profesional Mara tapi tak dapat. Dah buat rayuan, sama je tidak berjaya....

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Hai, post ni sementara sahaja. Nanti aku update post ni la bila dah dapat result spm on 14 March. Seminggu je lagi, seminggu. Hari yang takdelah aku nantikan dah nak muncul but still aku masih la kena hadap sama ada cepat atau lambat. Depan family dan kawan, aku rilek je. Nampak tenang. Kawan baik aku asik "aku takut do" "mesti teruk do" "ala...

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(Disclaimer: post ini untuk diri aku. Bukan nasihat/motivasi untuk awak semua) So, aku jumpa tweet ni. Tiba-tiba macam nak cakap pasal diri sendiri :) UPSR - 5A PT3 - 8A F4 - C , D , FAILED F5 - C , D , FAILED aku je ke yg masuk f4 , f5 jadi org bodoh ') I really need moral support for the...

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When I was 12 years old, I was so addicted to the blog and post everything I like. But then, My life started to tremble and I was at my lowest. "Hopeless" "Lifeless" And...... "Heartless," I said. The day - arrived. The day when I got my UPSR result. I was hoping that I could get straight A's, but I didn't. My best...

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Disclaimer: Post agak panjang Hai, so today I feel like I want to write about my journey to get a license. I just finished my spm and I think this is the right time to register since I am jobless and I have a lot of free time. 2 JANUARY - Ceramah 6 jam. Okay, first of all. isn't 6 hours pun. For me,...

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Harini, nak share my night skincare routine. Actually, aku jenis pemalas. Tapi dalam hati masih nak kulit bersih dan cantik. So, aku masih dalam basic routine. Takde pakai acid bla bla BHA AHA semua sebab pakai sunscreen pun malas ehek. Muka aku takde banyak jerawat, sejak jaga muka, jerawat keluar bila datang haid je obvs. Hormon kot, but ya, sebulan sekali je jerawat muncul. But...

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 (Disclaimer: tips untuk budak kejap rajin kejap malas) Kali ni aku nak bagi tips yang aku guna (sangat berguna) pada budak yang macam aku study last minit! Takdelah last minit mana, aku study 2-3 bulan before SPM ehek. Tips umum dia, PLEASE PLEASE join telegram SPM. Korang subscribe je SPM bot apa tu aku tak ingat. Kita kan geng malas bukak buku, so...

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Hai, sambungan semalam. Aku nak start cerita masa aku form 5 terus. Form 5 aku memang penat. Bukan maksud aku waktu form 5 yang penat, aku yang penat. Dengan tuitionnya, koko tu aku cuba maintain kehadiran semua. It was hard. Masa koko, aku la manusia paling lonely, sebab aku sejenis manusia yang takde kawan. Jujur aku kata, aku memang takde kawan yang macam orang...

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(disclaimer: post panjang) Hai, memandangkan my spm result gonna be out in a month, aku nak throw back la masa aku spm dulu hihi. Masa umur aku 15 tahun, pt3. Aku tak suka belajar. Aku bukan jenis budak yang belajar sungguh-sungguh. So masa pt3 tu aku dapat 5A 3B 1C 1D. Unfortunately, dari sekolah rendah memang tak pernah nak skor subjek sains. Sampai...

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I miss school, no, I actually miss studying. Cramp out my brain at night for the exam. Chemistry is one of my favorite subjects in school. When I was 16 years old, I like physics. I was wrong, haha. I'd prefer chemistry. Why? It is because chemistry is way easier than physics. So, this is my tips on how to score well in...

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I've had anxiety and depression for 5 years. However, last year I managed to control myself with this attack. I am sorry, I think I still have this anxiety. I am not assuming that I have a disorder, it happens to me sometimes for no reason. What happens to me? I will just get the worried, anxious feeling in my chest and then...

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Hai, I am so happy. My boyfriend surprised me with this BeauTyra Planner. You can purchase this planner HERE for RM40! So, I am going to show you what's inside this planner. I don't like pink, but my boyfriend said "letak la pink dalam your collection sikit" I have 3 planners, one is for my blog where I track and plan what I want to...

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I just want to say that I am sorry for everything. I also don't want to deal with this attack again. I don't know what to call. I don't think that I have depression because it is an illness. Anxiety? I don't know.. I have no idea what I'm dealing with since then. I'm sorry, I know some people can't deal with this kind...

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A long time ago, I was addicted to this since I read and follow Maisara on Twitter. So, I decided to grab this but I hesitated to buy. My boyfriend kept pushing me to buy this instead of Safi Trial Set. My goal for 2019 is to buy one trial kit per month. Sadly, this month I'm not buying anything yet. I bought...

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(Disclaimer: My English teruk tahap takleh bincang) Hai, today I would like to share what I got for my 18th birthday last three weeks. I turn eighteen on 3rd January. During my birthday, I went to Mytown with my boyfriend. When we go for a date, we usually spent most of our money on food. So, we spent RM100 for a day- for our...

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I have been using simple products since 2017. I used to write about this product in my diary. So let me just update it on my blog. I stick to their cleanser and moisturiser. However, I feel nothing on my skin when I use it. I think it is because this product is gentle to your skin so maybe it won't harsh or...

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Hai, dulu masa form 5, I selalu tak siap nota sejarah. So, one day I kena siapkan nota dalam masa seminggu, so here it is. My notes. Tapi, ni from BAB 4-BAB 9 sahaja. Buku nota I memang I tak dapat idk, cikgu I suka kot sneakpeak  click this link :) notes 1 notes 2 Thank you x, mera ...

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